blondenarcissa @ 2003-05-03 18:56:00

Current mood: enraged

HILDA VECTOR
A number of days ago you advised me to "give Mrs. Weasley a run for her money in frantically hunting for lost children until he is found and found safe." I admit that initially I was very upset by both the fact that you would ask I look to a Weasley as to how to do something properly but also that you took it upon yourself to tell me how to raise my son. Once I had the opportunity to reflect on the meaning of your message, however, I thought that perhaps you were right.

Perhaps my son doesn't think I care enough about him.

Perhaps my son doesn't think I make enough of an effort as far as he is concerned.

Perhaps my son feels that I have slighted him somehow.

All of these thoughts and others just as heart-wrenching quickly became the center of my thoughts, no thanks to you.

I have tried your ways, Hilda. I have owled him repeatedly. I have taken in upon myself to show up at Hogwarts unnannounced and call for him. I have searched the grounds high and low for him, wishing for him to reveal himself to me just so we could talk about whatever it is that is vexing him so.

Your words made me turn my entire way of dealing with my child upside down and look at what has happened now:

He is ignoring me. He is ignoring me and I do not know why but I feel that somehow, someway, you are partially to blame for this.

For as much as you may rever Molly Weasley, I am not her by any means. I do not aspire to be her nor do I wish to further attempt to mother my son as she does her own even if you clearly think that she is the superior mother. I may not be the best mother in the world, Hilda, but I am the only mother that Draco has. In the past I have made some mistakes and I am trying to rectify them. I only hope that he will allow me to do so. This may not even be possible as he is refusing to communicate with me.

How dare you open the door for my son to push me through.

How dare you.

Comments:

purestblood @ 2003-05-03 05:41 pm UTC

My beloved,

I cannot fault you as a mother. You have served Draco and myself in the best way possible by being an upstanding member of society and a model for all other women to look to. Hilda does not understand, nor could she ever, the pressures attendant upon carrying the Malfoy name. You are right to call her upon her nerve in trying to tell you how to be a mother. The numbers may enable her to pry into the affairs of others with more accuracy than some, but they cannot tell her what it is like to carry a child, nurture it, and love it.

Draco will come around, I am sure. Have faith, my love. I know that you are of invaluable help to Remus and Sirius as the wedding approaches, especially in light of Remus', ah, infirmity, but know that the Manor is quite empty without you.

Your husband

blondenarcissa @ 2003-05-03 05:54 pm UTC

Lucius,

Thank you, although I am quite sure that Hilda will refuse to see things from our perspective. I shall not be gone for too terribly long tonight, perhaps two or three hours at most. How are your arm and ankle coming along today? When you no longer require medical assistance I shall take my leave once again, I want to remind you. We both have been so focused on making sure you have a full, quick recovery that neither one of us has really had the opportunity to focus on the problems we had before you and Remus decided to play schoolboys and hex the bemerlin out of one another.

Narcissa

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purestblood @ 2003-05-03 05:58 pm UTC
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Now, now, Narcissa. You know perfectly well that Remus instigated the duel. I could not back down, nor would I.

I am feeling much better. You are better at taking care of others than you realize, my darling. I respect your need for space. Take as much time as you need to. I'm glad the flying lessons are going well. It's quite an exhilirating feeling, isn't it?

Lucius

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blondenarcissa @ 2003-05-03 06:03 pm UTC

I was not there to witness who called the first hex so I shan't take sides either way.

I shall return to the Manor tonight after spending a few hours with Remus. In the morning I shall depart for Dogear Wryde again for an undecided amount of time. We can discuss this when I return from the estate tonight.

As far as flying lessons go, I must confess that I have not exactly felt 'exhilerated' as of yet. The first time I was trying to play close attention to what I was doing and did not have time to really enjoy things. Perhaps tonight shall be different.

Narcissa

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purestblood @ 2003-05-03 06:11 pm UTC
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It will take some time, love, but you'll see what I mean. There's a freedom that can't be matched when you're in the air, above it all.

I'll wait up for you in the library. I hope you don't mind, but I scheduled a massage and facial at that little spa in Stockholm that you like for Monday. It doesn't show, but I know that you must be feeling stressed with the wedding coming up.

Your husband

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blondenarcissa @ 2003-05-03 06:18 pm UTC

Which library? We have three, dear. The one just down the corridor from the sauna and reflection room?

You are very thoughtful to arrange spa time for me. Of course I don't mind. Perhaps I shall take Remus with me if he (she?) still finds himself (herself?) to be of a different gender.

Narcissa

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purestblood @ 2003-05-03 06:37 pm UTC
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I'm so sorry. I didn't elaborate. Yes, the one just down from the sauna. It's more intimate than the others, I think, and has become my favorite room in the house.

You definitely should take Remus. I think he/she would quite enjoy some of the luxuries that come with being female.

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