blondenarcissa @ 2003-04-06 21:12:00

Current mood:

drunk

What with all the stress about my life lately, I cannot even muster up enthusiasm about tomorrow's trip to Paris with Lucius. I am terribly worried about our son and he seems to think that Draco can handle life on his own without vocal support from his parents. There was a time that I felt as Lucius does; Draco needs to learn the way of the world and what better way to do that than relying on himself to get through the tasks that life and the Fates provide for oneself?

I do not feel this way any longer.

Perhaps it is because lately I myself have been feeling cut off from being connected to someone or something. Oh, my darling husband goes out of his way to compliment me and shower me with baubles (which of course I can never resist. As Mother always said, a lady should never shy away from flattery and jewelry. It is as essential to a female as oxygen. Sometimes I do believe it is even moreso. All this aside, I find myself. . .bored. Dissatisfied. Shopping no longer brings me the immense pleasure that it once did.

This in itself is most alarming but I hope that it can be explained by the fact that the past few weeks I have been purchasing things for that wily business associate and not myself. Not only that but the things I have been spending galleons on is rather atrocious. Why, the man's taste in clothing would make even Xiomara's lip curl in displeasure. Leisure suits are dead to me and as attractive as Severus's coif yet he insists that I fashion him in this manner.

I can only comfort myself with the notion that upcoming shopping extravaganzas will be a bit classier as I am planning that bachelor tea party for Remus.

Perhaps after all the wedding business is overwith and my charming son is back to himself I shall take a mini-holiday. Alone.

Comments: