| hannahabbott @ 2004-06-26 17:28:00 |
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I like the little things...
I also like to be able to close my eyes and not see horrible things soon. I keep hearing the sounds of things breaking and wincing and dodging the ceiling and I can still feel bits of glass in me even though I know they are all removed by now but it is still scary and I am so tired.
I owled my mum yesterday to let her know that I found Cat and that she's all right and she owled me back today and the letter smells so much like home that it made me want to cry. I just want to be home as soon as possible with Cat and be safe with my family and have my friends drop by for tea and chitchats during summers like we used to and pretend none of these ever happened.
It is Ernest's birthday tomorrow and I can't help feeling like I really really really want a good party for him. Especially right now, I think a good celebration for what's left is just what we all need. But with all that is going on and everything still a mess, we can't do anything more than have a makeshift cake for him and it makes me so sad just looking at it.
I love my friends so much, and my family, and it sounds awful to say this but I'm really glad to be out of Hogwarts soon. It's not that I hated it here because I didn't, I treasured every second here and I've made friends that have become my extended family and I'll always be grateful. But I can't say I'm not sick of dreading every this time of the year when something goes wrong because I am.
I'm sick of the scary countdown that still catches us by surprise and I know it just has to be safer away from Harry Potter even though I have nothing against him, even though they said You-Know-Who is now gone, I still want to be away from all of this and take the people I care about with me so I can stop having this sinking feeling that something might happen to them if I as much as blink.
Summer's always been my favourite season and I'm determined to enjoy this one as much as I can. I'm using this icon of mine because Ernie took it so it makes me smile. I miss him being my Ernest sometimes though I've never really said it, but after what happened I get scared that I'll lose my chance to let people know what I feel about them. So yes, I do miss "us" but you don't have to say anything.. mostly I'm just really happy you're safe and that we all are.
I love you all, my Puffs and more.
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