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I've not had a lot to say lately, but I'll try and fix this in the distant future. A lot's going on in the next week or so, which I'm pleased for. Keeping busy is something I strive for, especially when I get in bittersweet moods. It happens less and less now, but sometimes someone will just mention something and then I remember.

Sometimes its stupid. Just the mention of a Quidditch move, or team, or something he and I did in Hogsmeade together that they're doing now. And being around a lot of friends, like I am ... well, let's say I can hear about a lot. But I know he's okay. And he's not in pain, which is the one thing I've never understood, yet I make myself realize it. If he wasn't in pain *here,* why should I take comfort in knowing he isn't in pain *there?*

Quidditch practice has been taking up all my time lately. As much as I know we're improving, I can't help but know we won't win, no matter how much I hope otherwise. Gryffindor has Harry Potter, so I know we don't really have any hope. But that's okay. It is. As long as we do our best, I know we'll win, even if not *officially.*

I've decided on violet dress robes for the ball, but that's all I know. How can I even think of taking someone? Maybe it has been two years, but it isn't easy to get over someone you loved. I know he would want me to move on, but sometimes I just want to burst into tears at the thought of holding someone else's hand in a dance. Even if it was only a single dance.

Rheece asked me to the ball, but I told him "I'll think about it." I don't want to hurt his feelings. He's ... well, my best friend, and I don't want to hurt him. I don't. I've seen the way he looks at me during Quidditch practice. But it is so easy to go "Sure, I'll go with you" so I won't be stuck in the dorm room. Maybe I will ... He deserves to have fun, too, and have a good time, even if I'm "using" him. Which I won't be. I'll march up to him and go "Sure. But just as friends."

And watch his face crumble.

Some friend I am, huh?

Okay, so I'm being melodramatic, but what better place to be that way than here?

blushcrush @ 2002-06-14 07:35 pm UTC

Hi, Cho...? I know you don't know me, but I'm Harry's friend's little sister, Ginny Weasley. I'm sorry to bring it up, but you seem so sad - don't be sad. :) I think Ravenclaw has just as good of a chance to win as Gryffindor. I hope you have fun at the ball, too.

Love,
Ginny

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