wheresmytoad @ 2004-01-05 17:49:00

Current mood:

happy

Well, it's nice to be back again, with the start of another New Year. Dean, thanks for visiting during hols--although, um, I have to apologize again for that scene we subjected you to on Christmas Eve. It was bloody awkward for you, I know, being in the middle of that. I felt really bad once I'd cooled down and discovered that you'd grabbed your bag and left (on Christmas Eve, no less). We're not like that ordinarily, truly. I've never blown up at Gran like that before, ever. I hope you also got Gran's apology by owl. She felt really badly, too, and she said she was going to send you one.

I think Gran's learned her lesson about trying to, well, shield me from things. It's such a relief, too, to have it finally confirmed that it wasn't Deatheaters messing with my mind with that memory block, but someone who loved me and only wanted to protect me. I still don't understand why she thought she should hide it from me. I apologized for calling her a liar and all (yeah, she was--but I should have handled it differently, I guess. More diplomatically). I suppose that blowing up at her like that isn't the best way to convince her I'm not a child anymore. But it did make her look at me differently, and in a good way in the end. Anyway, we eventually worked it out. She agreed to show me all the details of the memory block spell. And for the first time in months, I finally feel like I can talk to her, because the lie is exposed for what it is, and it can't be a barrier between anymore.

The rest of the holiday, oddly enough, went really well once the big smoky explosion was over and the air had been cleared. I was at St. Mungo's on Christmas Day and saw Professor Lupin then. I stopped at Heaton Hall to see the Christmas decorations, and we did some shopping last week. Spent a lot of time playing with some of my younger cousins.

But I was ready to come back. It's a new year, and I feel ready to crack open the books and get back to work.

Padma, I got a new chess board for Christmas. Interested in a game sometime in the next several nights before the homework piles up too far?

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