hannahabbott @ 2004-06-24 13:38:00

I don't understand, I don't understand why this is happening. I got out of the infirmary this morning, Seamus was there, and I realised when I got there that I was surprised that Seamus was still alive, and surprised that anyone was still alive when I saw them. I want a role call, a head count, I want to know who is here and who isn't but everyone is spread all over the classrooms on the ground floor and the library and our common room. I can't stop crying and I checked to see if my mother had emailed me, but she hasn't. I haven't seen my sister since I got out of the infirmary, and now I can't remember if I saw her before I went into it. She sits at an entirely different table, and I don't know anything about the Gryffindors but I know the Hufflepuffs were nearly dead more than once, what if something's happened to my sister???? I feel so stupid writing in this at a time like this, but all we can do is sit. It was so terrifying in the classroom I was in, lying next to someone I didn't even know who'd had to have a thick shard of glass taken out of the back of her neck. We didn't even say anything, we just stared at each other and looked away. We were supposed to get our wands back at dinner last night, and I haven't got mine back from Professor Sprout today. I don't even know where Professor Sprout is. Professor McGonagall is looking for me and I'm terrified that she's going to tell me that something's happened to my sister, but she must be all right, she's my baby sister!! Ernest is looking no different than before, they say he's fine but he looks horrible and I don't know what to do for him, and I saw it, I saw that happen to him and I think that was the most terrifying thing I've ever seen, and I just don't know why, and I can't stop thinking about it, every time I look at him it's there again, I can't stop thinking about it, we saw a demonstration of that in our fourth year but it was on a spider, and it wasn't Ernie, and it wasn't Ernie who looked like he was going to die, but then it was and I just wish I could hit someone. I have to find Professor McGonagall now.

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