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Sirius?

Sirius, where are you?

Are you here? I can't find you. Where did you go? I don't know-

You don't understand, it wasn't- I didn't. Think.

Sirius, please... talk to me.

I'm here.

jadedsirius @ 2003-04-26 10:10 pm UTC

Why do you care?

lupercus @ 2003-04-26 10:14 pm UTC

Because I do.

Where are you?

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jadedsirius @ 2003-04-26 10:16 pm UTC

It doesn't matter.

You can just go back to what you were doing.

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lupercus @ 2003-04-26 10:20 pm UTC

Sirius, please don't do this. You don't understand.

Just tell me where you are and I will find you. We have to talk about this.

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jadedsirius @ 2003-04-26 10:22 pm UTC

No, I think I understand just fine.

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lupercus @ 2003-04-26 10:24 pm UTC

How can you say that? You don't know what happened. I can explain, if you'd just tell me where you are.

Please, Sirius. I'm sorry.

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jadedsirius @ 2003-04-26 10:25 pm UTC

I can say that because I have eyes.

And I do not think being in the same room with you is a good idea.

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lupercus @ 2003-04-26 10:27 pm UTC

What you saw and what happened aren't the same thing, Sirius. I wasn't thinking, I told you. I had a lot to drink, and it wasn't-

Look, I want to talk to you. Why are you bloody hiding from me?

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jadedsirius @ 2003-04-26 10:29 pm UTC

I am not hiding. You know perfectly well where to find me if you wanted to. But I don't suggest it.

And now my eyes are not working properly? It was some clever illusion, was it?

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lupercus @ 2003-04-26 10:35 pm UTC

Sirius, I'm sorry. I didn't think... I was lonely and I drank too much and I just... it wasn't anything, I just missed you, and... I didn't know what I was doing.

Please, please don't be angry. Not over this.

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jadedsirius @ 2003-04-26 10:37 pm UTC

Oh, right. You missed me. Even I haven't tried that one.

At least it's obvious you're inexperienced at this.

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lupercus @ 2003-04-26 10:38 pm UTC

What the hell is that supposed to mean?

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jadedsirius @ 2003-04-26 10:40 pm UTC

What do you think it means?

I missed you too. I left early to come and see you. But you'd obviously found something to comfort you.

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lupercus @ 2003-04-26 10:41 pm UTC

That isn't fair Sirius. I didn't... I didn't do anything to hurt you. I didn't know what I was DOING. I didn't know you'd be there.

Do you think I MEANT for this to happen?

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jadedsirius @ 2003-04-26 10:43 pm UTC

Yes, quite obviously you didn't know I'd be there.

And what if I hadn't showed up? You'd still be there, I'm sure.

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lupercus @ 2003-04-26 10:47 pm UTC

It doesn't matter if you were there or not, I didn't mean for it to happen!

You don't know that. You don't know anything, Sirius. This isn't fair. I didn't mean to hurt you, I'm sorry I hurt you. I never meant to.

Please, can't we just forget it ever happened?

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jadedsirius @ 2003-04-26 10:50 pm UTC

No, well, quite obviously I deserved it, didn't I?

Do you feel better now? Getting even?

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lupercus @ 2003-04-26 10:57 pm UTC

Oh, for fuck's sake, Sirius, that isn't what this is about. It wasn't revenge, it was... it was just a kiss that shouldn't have happened and I'm sorry that it did. But I'm not that petty and you KNOW that.

And no, I don't feel better, so you can be happy about that at least.

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jadedsirius @ 2003-04-26 11:03 pm UTC

No, I'm not happy about much of anything right now.

I did what you asked. I've really made an effort. For nothing, apparently.

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lupercus @ 2003-04-26 11:14 pm UTC

It wasn't for nothing. It is everything, you know that. It means so much to me that you've done the things you've done, because I know how hard it is for you. Not inviting Lucius to your party was so important to me, you'll never know.

Please, Sirius. I made a mistake, please forgive me?

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percyneedsalife @ 2003-04-26 11:15 pm UTC

Making an effort, eh? That's not what I saw. You and Lucius Malfoy being joined at the hip, and all.

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purestblood @ 2003-04-26 11:16 pm UTC

We were not joined at the hip, young Mr. Weasley. Just exactly what body parts were joined, I will refrain from stating, but rest assured that our hips were never near one another.

Lucius Malfoy

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lupercus @ 2003-04-26 11:18 pm UTC

...what the hell?

Sirius? What are they talking about?

...Was Lucius THERE?

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lupercus @ 2003-04-26 11:22 pm UTC

Sirius? Was he there?

Was Lucius Malfoy there?

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lupercus @ 2003-04-26 11:25 pm UTC

SIRIUS?

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jadedsirius @ 2003-04-26 11:32 pm UTC

I didn't invite him.

Nothing happened.

I left to see you.

But it doesn't matter anymore.

You'll never believe me again.

And I don't blame you.