wheresmytoad @ 2003-01-11 01:08:00

Current mood:

crushed

i want to cry. :((

everytime i see lavender, i head in the opposite direction!! i got points taken away for being late to class yesterday and today. i have almost everyday. its hard to avoid her gaze at meals, too, but i have to try some more!

Its not like I want to not talk to her, because I do...

I-I guess, I could talk to her...

But how can I???

She has to hate me...or not speak to me, either.

Grams wanted to say somethin' to me, when I got onto the train a few days ago, but she didn't. Instead she just gazed at me like I was a huge disappointment. Which I probably am right now, to lots of people. I wonder if shes still mad about whatever I did. or didn't do, or Lavender did, or...or..

It isn't like I try to do the wrogn thing. They just happen to me. :(

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