| wheresmytoad @ 2003-06-09 04:30:00 |
| Current mood: | harassed |
Not the best of weekends
I had detention to serve, even this weekend, so I missed the Quidditch match. Doesn't sound like I would have enjoyed it much anyway. Cho, sorry to hear what happened; am glad Malfoy ended up in the hospital at least.
Filch has had me scrubbing the floor of the Quidditch locker rooms, the hallways, the kitchen, some of the bathrooms, all week long. I absolutely ache all over. I went to the library to study last night, until I checked my e-mail and found out about the roommate fiasco and came back. It looks as though Colin might have been in briefly sometime during the night (yet more stuff got dumped on Dean's bed), but I don't think he slept in our room at all. He must have done what he'd said and slept in a common room somewhere. Ron was up early and off--I think he's gone looking for Dean to murder him.
I hope we're not stuck with this situation. I'm going to check with McGonagall. But if we are . . . Professor Black, I don't suppose you probably had much of a chance this weekend to work on what we talked about? I promise you, I will NOT make the mistake of exploding at Colin Creevey again, even if McGonagall won't rescue us. But, well, maybe we can talk some more after class today?
Cor, I'm tired. Didn't sleep well. Hope I can stay awake today.
Neville
Comments:
| knight_to_h3 @ 2003-06-09 01:25 pm UTC |
It wasn't that bad really, he was sleeping most of the time anyway
(parent)| knight_to_h3 @ 2003-06-09 02:00 pm UTC Re: |
WHEN THE SOD DID I SAY HE'S OUT OF THE HOSPITAL?! DO YOU LOT EVEN READ?!
(parent)| crabbe @ 2003-06-09 02:07 pm UTC |
i am just saying he is still in hospital because he can not leave yet because he is injury.
(parent)| just_harry @ 2003-06-09 04:49 pm UTC |
But Lisa said he was sleeping because he was unconscious. No one even really knows how he is or if his knee is even going to be okay again. Sometimes I just don't get Neville these days.
(parent)| just_harry @ 2003-06-09 10:48 pm UTC |
Yeah, but to get unconscious, it has to be pretty bad.
(parent)| wheresmytoad @ 2003-06-09 07:00 pm UTC |
Harry, um.
I've written this comment out and erased it three times, trying to get it right. Still not sure I can explain myself good enough to keep you from getting hacked off at me all over again. Well, even if I muck up what I'm trying to say, this is the best I can do, so here goes.
Look, I'm sorry. You have to know there's no love lost between me and Malfoy. There's what he did to Trevor, and well, we've just had bad blood between us since our first year. More than just Slytherin-Gryffindor rivalry, you know. (Although I suppose he would deny that he ever bothers wasting a spare thought on me. Maybe that's even true.)
Anyway, what I said was just a stupid, snarky off-hand remark, and yeah, I wasn't really paying attention to what I was saying when I posted it. If I had taken the time to think first I wouldn't have said that because no, I don't really think anyone deserves to be knocked unconscious and permanently maimed. Not even Malfoy.
I could give you all sorts of excuses for saying what I did: I'm tired, I'm in the middle of a two week detention, exams are coming up, I'm being buried alive by Professor Snape, all the stuff happening between all of us in the room, and there's other things you don't even know about. But that's all they would be, just excuses. When it comes right down to it, a person has to be sure they really mean what they say. Even when they're tired or stressed or whatever. Maybe especially then. Anyway, what I said was out of line.
If you don't "get Neville" these days--well, I understand that cos believe me, I don't get Neville these days. But that's why I'm talking to Professor Black, see? I'm trying to get to the bottom of a lot of things about myself that I just don't understand. So even though I haven't been myself lately, would you please just let me have a little slack? Believe me, when I figure things out, I'll tell you if I can. Just don't give up on me in the meantime. And I promise I'll try to be more civil and everything, all right?
Read this over and still don't like it. I'm just so stupid at explaining things. But anyway, I'm going to post it. At least I thought it through this time first.
Neville
| just_harry @ 2003-06-09 10:45 pm UTC |
I know things have been really rough on you lately and I guess I should have thought about that. But maybe you should see Madam Pomfrey or something? Lots of us are really worried about you lately. Anyway, I say stupid things I don't mean all the time, so really it's no big deal. I'm sorry I said anything so don't think I'm mad or anything. I wish you felt better, though.
(parent)| wheresmytoad @ 2003-06-10 05:31 am UTC Thanks |
Re: seeing Madam Pomfrey: my immediate reaction was "no," but then I thought of how I lectured Lavender, and I had to laugh. Yeah, so maybe I should put my money where my mouth is. Okay, I'll probably stop by the hospital wing and see if she can give me a sleeping potion for tonight or something.
I'm really sorry I woke you and Ron up like that last night. It took me a little bit to figure out where I was. Weren't you able to get back to sleep afterward? You looked like you felt pretty tired yourself this morning.
Neville
| just_harry @ 2003-06-10 11:39 am UTC Re: Thanks |
It's okay. You didn't wake me up. I was up already.
(parent)| jadedsirius @ 2003-06-09 04:20 pm UTC |
Neville,
I've done some research, and I have a few ideas. I'm going to talk to a few people (confidentially, I promise) and hopefully I'll have a few spells to try by the end of the week. Please be patient and remember that what you say in this journal also reflects on what people think of you, if you're worried about that.
~Sirius
| wheresmytoad @ 2003-06-09 06:17 pm UTC Thanks, Professor |
I really appreciate whatever help you can give. And on your last point, um, so noted. Yeah, you're right. I'll leave a comment for Harry.
Neville